IT'S AUGUST!!

Yeah everybody's aware of that fact. I dunno, I just can't think of any good title right now and I am not even sure why I'm blogging at this very moment. I guess I just wanted to say something for my first post for this month.

I really should be collecting my thoughts together and start writing about the four questions from this entry and if you're not in the mood to check it out, I'll just paste the 4 questions here, maybe some you will be interested enuf to answer it, if not, it's ok.

1. Is sexual intercourse necessary for the relationship?
2. What should you expect from sexual intercourse?
3. If you should need help where will you seek it?
4. Have you thought about how this relationship will end?

To those who wanna take part of it, go ahead and comment or if you think your answers are gonna be really long you can email me at myfingersaretyping@hotmail.com and also if you're too "shy" but still wanna give me a piece of your brain, EMAIL ME! I don't bite ;) and if you want your answers to be posted as from "anonymous", I'll respect that, no worries. I'm just really interested with people and what they think about sexual intercourse these days. Is it considered a taboo? Yes?No?Maybe?

Yes. Because it's improper and it's a SIN unless you're married.

No. If you don't care and you enjoy the pleasure.

Maybe. If you're in between "do I wanna do it?" or "I shouldn't do it".

REALLY, I should stop right here before I get carried away and spill my thoughts reserved for the 4 questions entry.

Go ahead and answer the 4 questions. ;)

So what else is new? I've been sick since Saturday. I've been coughing my lungs out and I've got runny nose, what a way to welcome the month of August! ahm and after over a year of pure laziness and non stop pigging out, I enrolled myself back to kickboxing again!! woot! It's been 2 weeks, yep! Every single effing time I come in, the training/workout are getting more intense! I shouldn't be complaining you know, but I'm always sore after, my legs are wobbly and my arms are so aching that for a couple of days I am struggling with my bra, I can't hook it on.

Is there a worse part from it so far?

I think the worse part of the training workout so far are the dumbbells. I was being a princess so I took the 3 lb ones. We used that to get the rhythm, not for hardcore combination coz I don't think you're supposed to, but after a while you'll get sore and after some time the 3lbs will feel like they weigh 10 lbs each and your arms felt like they're gonna fall off.

Second are the push ups! who invented the push ups? seriously! I hate doing push ups coz I don't know how, I never knew how! If you'll see from behind I look like a struggling frog trying to get up from a fall or something, I sometimes forget that you should be bending your elbows as you go down, so I look really stupid while doing push ups =)) hey, at least I have some coordination going on, I can do jumping jacks unlike these guys.

LOL at the 3rd guy from the left, hands and feet coordination fail!

I am so defensive about me not being able to do push ups =)) haha

Another not my favourite part, jump ropes. It's just awkward to see your self in the mirror (yes, we workout in front of a wall sized mirror) and your boobs also jumping up and down. =))

Best Part?
The exercise ball! Mara and I were chatting one day and we talked about the exercise ball, we have two (a red and a purple I believe) at my parents' house but I never saw anyone in my family used it, I never used it so I had no idea at all whatsoever. Mara told me she had fun bouncing on it so my idea of the ball was for bouncing and for the abs like you lay down, your upper body resting on the ball while you're on a squat position and you do your sit ups. Last Saturday was my first time on the ball and there are sooooo many ways on how to use it and the whole time I was thinking of Mara and how she'll prolly enjoy the ball workout. I did. Meagan told me I did a fantastic job considering so I was really happy about it. muunn! I maybe fat but I have monstrous flexibility but I suck at timing and I have a terrible sense of balance. =))

Over a year ago, I only got to the point of my training where I only got to use the kick & punch target, which is about a size of a pillow and someone will hold that up against their body and you kick it and the short focus mitt. And now to my delight, I get to do this baby

the heavy bag! but ours tho isn't touching the ground but yeah, same idea

The first day on the dojo, on the mat, I was really rusty, because I've gained the weight I lost from back when I was into kickboxing and for over a year I've got no exercise at all except for walking. I am happy with my performance especially the sit ups, with my bulging tummy on my way I can't even imagine I can get myself up. Sensei Rem had us do sit ups that day too, 3 rounds 30 secs each with 10 secs intervals. I did the first round non stop then came the second round I was really slowing down and the third round pssh I'm like dead already! haha I was also surprised with my kicks esp my left foot. My right foot is a baby, it's so weak, ok get a pillow and hold it up against your body and have a one year old kick it, that's how flimsy my right foot is, and my left foot? pssh! Angela my sparring partner that day who's been in the program for over a year now is at most times losing her balance when my left foot is kicking, no exaggeration but yeah she's struggling to keep her balance, my left foot still got the kicks! bwuahaha As for my boxing?hmm I've lost my rhythm.

Question: I just find it bizarre that I am right handed but my left foot and my left hand are both stronger than my right foot and my right hand. Is that "normal?", from day one, I expected my rights to be the dominant ones but it turned out to be the weaklings.

Gaah that's it. I got carried away again, got to go now.

Em on LOVE, SEX, SEX, SEX and FOREVER

Em on LOVE, SEX, SEX, SEX and FOREVER (yeah just giving some emphasis here). I've been trying to come up with this entry for the longest time and I'm just having the hardest time to collect my scattered thoughts. It's all up here, but the train of thoughts just wouldn't harmonize all together. At least today, I'm giving it another shot.

SPOILER ALERT: There are some details I am spilling about the book, so if you're interested in the book and hates spoilers then LEAVE, if not, I guess you can stay and I am begging haha

I've finished reading the book FOREVER by Judy Blume a week ago.

The book was really written intended for teens. It's not your typical mushy pocketbook with lotsa cheesy moments BUT it shows us the face of our generation today and what (maybe) it will look like 10 or 20 years from now, how they look at SEX.

The main characters of the story are: Michael Wagner, Katherine Danziger, and Ralph, just Ralph ahm ok sure Ralph Wagner with supporting characters: Mr. & Mrs. Danziger, Jamie Danziger, Erica Small, Artie, Sybil, Theo etc. etc.

To just cut the story short, Michael and Katherine started dating, they had their first kiss, trying to get it on and failed (at least for the first few tries), they promised forever to each other, they planned their whole life ahead, they're gonna be together forever and no one will ever break them apart. They had SEX successfully and they've been doing it every chance they get. Having had read a lot of sensual scenes and trust me on this one, it wasn't from a porn blog, I was disappointed that the author FAILED to arouse my imagination, then again, it's meant for teenagers not for people like me whom like I just said, had read more sensual scenarios. Despite the lack of success in making me excited, I had to give her props for keeping it teenager-ish, it made me look back on what I was when I was Katherine's age, I can relate to everything except for the sex part. Oh, just in case you're wondering where Ralph is in this picture?ahm he's inside Michael's pants. lol! do you guys name your penises?maybe just between you and your gf/wife eh? it's just funny every single time they get horny, "Ralph misses you", "Help Ralph" "I sucked Ralph until that white thing came out." I dunno I ROFL every single time.

Sure I fell in love for the first time when I was a teenager, promised that person, FOREVER, planned our future together, what we'll name our kids blah blah bullshitzz. Like the main characters of the story, our FOREVER too, ended. I have lots of questions back then, some things gave me the closure that I needed, some were forgotten. I knew NOTHING back then (though I thought I did), there were so many things going through in my head that time and as minutes went by, I just forgot what it was all about. I don't love him anymore but I'm still hurt, not of the fact that we as lovers had to end what we had, our friendship was also gone the day we decided to go separate ways. I just didn't lose in the love battle, but I also lost our friendship, I lost my bestfriend when we became a couple and just after a month of dating, we lost each other and we lost the friendship we valued for years. *sigh* *sigh* our FOREVER was brief. I am nonetheless happy to see where he is right now, that we're much better apart. I just kinda wished that we didn't go beyond friendship, I guess nothing is really meant to be for us to have not even companionship.

When you let go of someone you love does that mean you didn't love enuf? If the reason was because of another person, how could you be interested with another individual when you know you're "committed" and very much in love with someone already? Why does flirting even exists? and why the fuck do other people flirt back? Is SEX really important in a relationship? and I ain't talking about SEX in MARRIAGE, it's BEFORE getting married.And why when a FOREVER ends, why is it hard for the people involved to move on? You wanna know what I think why? People are STUCK with forever. I mean sure, you're hurt but don't you wanna move on when it's clear that the other person is already happy?either being alone or with someone else? Some people will effing cry for forever with because forever as an excuse.

Last question's answered already so up to the first one now.

When you let go of someone you love does that mean you didn't love enuf?
- Couple end a relationship for different reasons: One partner fell out of love/ain't happy no more. Too much arguing, instead of bringing happiness to each other, the relationship is just becoming stressful for both people. Infidelity. Whatever your reason is, it will still boil down to the fact that the relationship needed to END. And if you decided not to continue fighting for "love" anymore, it doesn't mean you didn't give enough, it doesn't mean you didn't love enough, you didn't care enough. Sometimes, letting go is the key to being happy. You sure don't want to be in a relationship that doesn't give you something to look forward to, do you? Whatever your end in the relationship, remember that there will always be a RAINBOW after every storm.

If the reason was because of another person, how could you be interested with another individual when you know you're "committed" and very much in love with someone already?
- I guess this one is more of an infatuation. Or you're lusting for that person. Katherine in the book "fell" for Theo. It was interesting how it all began, the two of them. They were both employed for the camp to teach tennis, sure they see each other everyday, but no serious/friendship TALKS, everyday is ahm nothing but just in passing (more of). One night, Katherine was horny but slept it off and she woke up blushing, she dreamed of making love with a man she's not supposed to be in bed with. -- THEO! I think it's fair enough that in most cases, we can in a more appropriate way say that being interested with another individual while committed with someone is equal as infatuation or lusting. There's no way I see it as "love", love itself is profound. You have to know the person inside out, flaws, weaknesses, before you can say "I love this person."

Why does flirting even exists? and why the fuck do other people flirt back?
- Why does flirting exists? for SINGLE people. If you're dedicated to someone already, you don't need to flirt, and don't give me LAME excuse like "flirting adds spice to the relationship", "I want thrill". Well, if you want spice, chug down a whole bottle of tabasco sauce and if you want thrill, go ghost haunting. Why do some people flirt back? It's either their drunk and horny and their partner is not there to give them some screaming orgasm/they wanna honk somebody that night OR they're perfectly sober and just stupid and up for some "thrill".

Is SEX really important in a relationship?
- Yes. For couple who'd done it and doing it every chance they get. No. For couple who are willing to wait. No. For single people who can't get themselves a bf or a gf. What's your stand? I wanna answer and semi-end my entry with four questions that were asked in the book and let's see how many people are brave enough to give me a piece of their brains and I just might make another entry for all of it. INCLUDING MINE. ;)

1. Is sexual intercourse necessary for the relationship?
2. What should you expect from sexual intercourse?
3. If you should need help where will you seek it?
4. Have you thought about how this relationship will end?

Just in case you've noticed, I haven't really talked about my stand on sex and relationship after all and I am about to end this entry. Like I said, I wanna know how many people are daring enough to answer those 4 questions above. No worries, I'm not gonna "copy" what you said, it's kinda like a survey on what people esp teenagers these days and their opinion on SEX and RELATIONSHIP.

And to end this entry, If you read my Cheesier than Chuck E Cheese entry, then you know I'm very much in love and committed. I am a cornball yes, I say FOREVER to us and I don't think there's nothing wrong with it. It's inevitable to not say I LOVE YOU FOREVER. INFINITY. To someone you really really love. Yes. The future is hell unsure, but we all gotta have a little faith you know. Do whatever we can to make our relationship be FOREVER, if it did work out then it's meant to be, if not, at least you tried. At the end of the day, we all gotta accept the fact that not all people we meet are meant to stay with us FOREVER, they may stay for a while though, to give us life lessons that one day we will look back on and be thankful for. They just didn't come into our lives for nothing or "accidentally".