WHAT IF?

What if?

I've been "musical" the past week and I am guaranteeing you this isn't about Babyface's song, "What if". It's the "what if's" in my life, or maybe in yours too.

A lot of people had a good laugh about reminiscing the past when out of the blue I blogged about who I was as a kid and what I "believed" in during my naive and gullible days and I wasn't surprised that a lot of bloggers/readers were equally naive.

If  you understand Tagalog go ahead and click the links (if you haven't read any of it)

PBA - A FAN GIRL'S MOMENT
MGA AKALA KO NUNG BATA PA AKO
GANITO KA BA DATI?
HULING YUGTO

If you didn't click the links because you don't understand Tagalog, don't worry I have something else for you. Who were you as kid? What are the games you usually play back then? Reminiscing, do you always have a good laugh looking back?

I made those four part entry with two things in mind: (I bet nobody saw this coming)

1. RELATIONSHIP -- I want to establish the writer - reader relationship. It's not about being too friendly, it's coz I've been told NOT just once or twice but LOTSA times that I look like a fiiiiin snob and my blog kinda give that feeling too. It bothers me to know that a lot of people are aloof and that if they approach me I'll be like "wtf?don't talk to me unless you're ready to kiss my arse" -- I am so not like that! haha So, my awesomeness kicked in and thought of writing an entry that I know a lot of people could relate to and it's the perfect time to let almost everyone know that "hey, I'm not a snob, I'm cool, I'm plain simple".
2. PEOPLE WATCHING -- ok, I wanna make it clear people watching is not synonymous to being judgmental, or at least for me. I love to watch people whenever I can, especially if I have to commute and take the bus -- just perfect! And thru people watching and the phase that I'm in at this point, pushed me to ask the what if's in life.

Again, as some of you know, my summer especially my September was in a bad way eventful, shocking, life-changing and stressful for me and family. I was shocked and too hurt that I wanna escape this life. I just wanna escape who I am and just be someone.

WHAT IF:

- I was born a male?
- I was born not a Filipina? I wonder what race I'll be.
- I was born from a different set of parents, I wonder what I'll look like or what my name would be?

WHAT IF:
I wasn't born as Em, I wonder what my life would be like or what kind of problems I'll face to be tougher. If I wasn't born as Em will I survive the challenges in my life? If I wasn't born as Em, my childhood maybe wouldn't be about Alvin Patrimonio.  If I wasn't born as Em, then this blog wouldn't exist. MyfingersRtyping and its contents are all from who I am as this Em person.

If I wasn't born as Em, I could be the person who I'm not

- A math genius
- 5'5" or taller
- A basketball player
- A dancer


Heck!

I am Em and I'm choosing to stay who I am and I am choosing to win life's battle. This is my life and there's a reason why I am a part of my parents' and my sister's life, there's a reason why I am a part of yours whether you like it or not.


"Sometimes, if not most of the time, you find out who you are by figuring out who you are not." -- Kelly Cutrone

Aaah the What if's in life.